Directionless in Life

Umbrella for coffee. Just a random photo from my photography collection.
Umbrella for coffee. Just a random photo from my photography collection.

I feel like I have driven myself into the ground these past two weeks. That old familiar feeling: I am doing too much. I am overcommitted.

The difference this time, though: I have come to the conclusion that TAOpivot is not what I want to be doing for life.

I have not talked much about TAOpivot in the past month; I told friends that I would put the business on hold for about a month. Now, I am not sure if that will even be the case. When telling people what I do for a living, I have found that I end up mumbling my usual pitch about TAOpivot. Or, the spark has disappeared.

What am I to do next? I have kept myself busy ( and earning money!) with a few gigs with local startups in the time being. I realize I have reached my burn-out point with all the gigs floating around my head and around my work hours.

I have an idea of what I want to do next after TAOpivot, but I also am afraid of figuring out how to execute this idea.

Thus, I have been lost all weekend and today. My therapists say I should journal about this turmoil I feel; I have done so, but I have not come to any a-ha moment yet. It is hard for me to completely turn my back on what I have worked on in the past year, especially when there are still outstanding clients and prospects reaching out to me.

I just don’t care though.

That’s it, I suppose. That’s all I want to say for now.