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Daily Post Day 20: The Most Important Thing

The most important thing I’m putting off…

Well, since I am writing this entry after-the-fact, I can safely say right now that I put off listening to my gut feeling about leaving San Francisco.

Until everything literally blew up in front of me.

And now I see clearly that I put off this decision for too long. Two years ago, I had wanted to leave San Francisco anyway. But I decided to stay because of other reasons. And last year, I couldn’t leave because of my accident.

But now, with this waiting period before business school, what else can I do? Wait around San Francisco? Circumstances say “no”.

So I’m glad I now see that I have a way out.

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Thoughts on Life

What can I say? October has been quite something so far. Reflections, contemplations, so forth.

This whole year I’ve wondered more and more about the paths that I cross and vice-versa. Why do things happen? Why do some people stay in my life for good and others just drift off with no good-byes?

I realized yesterday that one of my many mantras in life is “Everything happens for a reason.” Even if something feels so painful and unreal at the moment, it all was meant to happen.

But I understand that I just need to keep moving forward. To continue to think back and torture my mind…it will only hold me back.

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I’ve been avidly scrolling on Twitter lately.  I tend to check my writing, inspirational, and health lists the most since I enjoy reading about those three topics. I’ve been need of some inspiration, and not necessarily of the writing sort. I just need some more reinforcements on why I’m in this life and why things are the way they are.

Every day, really, I am thankful to be alive. As that sad memory drifts further and further away in time and in my mind, I feel a little less shackled, a little better about running off with no fears.

If I can survive what had happened to me, I can survive anything at this point. Life is not always easy, as my parents have told me and showed me through their life experiences. But whatever is worth fighting for will surely still be there at the end of my life.

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Blocks & Balance in Life

This week, I’ve heard the phrase “be happy but be practical” a few times. I am supposed to take a day off from my thoughts somehow, but of course, the question is: How do I shut off my brain?

I’ve been writing goals for the next few years and I feel a tug from both sides of myself: one side saying “You can and you will achieve these goals!” Then, the other side says, “Sigh, didn’t you have these goals down awhile ago? And you still haven’t achieved them. You never will.”

Yes, there’s that saying that says we’re our own worst critic. The Inner Critic in me is not just for my writing–it likes to criticize everything about my life. That I’m not good enough for the things that I really want. It’s tiring to have to battle this all the time.

Of course I know I could just shut the Inner Critic up and just go with the flow. I have done that before. But during times of immense change, all I hear are the nagging words within me.

I suppose for the weekend I shall retreat from these thoughts and just go about my daily deeds with no concern.

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The Path Curves Once Again.

Ocean Beach

Wide range of emotions these past five days since the big announcement. After the celebrations, the congratulations…reality settled in.

As the days tick by, I already feel anxious. I know things work out if they’re meant to be, but I have a tendency to want a lot of control over what to do next. Don’t we all? But the future is always uncertain, and no matter what I decide, in the end it’ll all be okay, right?

I’ve projected my departure from San Francisco for nine months from now. But, seems like that departure date might change with a phone call I received this morning.

It’s tough to “stay calm, relax” when there are several big decisions to make within the next few days/next week. It’s best to let it all incubate for awhile before I make any drastic decisions.

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Roadblocks Along Life.

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Another delayed post. The past few weeks have been hectic, especially on the weekends, so I haven’t had time to really think of much to write about.
In short, the fruits of my labor weren’t realized on Friday when I took my actual GMAT for the third time. The whole weekend I’ve been pondering what to do next, and it doesn’t really help that I feel tugged from different directions. There’s a road that I want to travel upon to get to my destination, but somehow there are roadblocks coming along that I didn’t expect. And now, I can only contemplate what to do next.
I know I need to find my place in life, that I need to achieve my goals. But then the question comes as well: what is really important to me? The past few days, I’ve thought about that and observed my surroundings, and I see what’s important to me. I don’t need anything more. Yet I find myself fighting for more anyway.
I suppose we all go through this phase at some point in our lives. Sometimes it happens early on in our lives, and sometimes it happens much later.
Well, that’s all I have to say. Until Tuesday, then.

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